Missing a part of me....

Was chatting with Nice the other day and he mentioned something about ..a relationship is just an investment... surprising my tears just flow....it made me think of how Mess told me this when we were like 5-6 yrs into the relationship.... i guess it wasnt all the quarrels and arguments tat hurts but it's this sentence that hurts most... how cud a relationship be an investment wen one is for love and the other is for money...

had a fight over sms with Mess... i'm all confused about my feelings nw... I cant deny tat a part of me is still with Mess and the reason is becus I guess that little of me got to used to him already... it hurts when he says I treat him like a junk... but it wasn't me... i tink i'm the one being treated like a junk instead... when he needed me i'll get a call.... when he is busy with his friends he is nowhere to be heard... tt's wad happened throughout the past 9 yrs... i'm just a nobody... all i can do is to sit at hm and wait for him... i totally hate tat feeling... i wan to be someone heard and seen cus i'm nt ugly and hideous... i did tot abt waiting for him before agreeing to Nice's but when I think abt hw I can't trust him anymore makes me feel the shivers... the hurt tat was brought upon me can nvr subside from my heart.... i took a big step to move on... i loved Mess and I guess it will turn into a just friendship soon with all the nonstop arguments...