D&M @ Vivo City

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went to pick up Danny and Huihui and proceeded to Vivo... had dinner at superdog... nt bad...hehe... watched the HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3.... it was nice to me... bt lame to MeSS and Danny...lol...

Lunch @ Tung Lok...

met up with my aunties and relatives at Tung Lok in Central....and baby

yew yew is a sweetie... everybody think he likes me...lol...

messy day...

went out with MeSs today for hair cut and dinner... was seen and qnsed by my friends... even the hairdresser and the waitress thought that we are an item... oh my... i cant believe this ...we're already like friends... bt... hai.. MeSs says he wants to go drive and drink... omg.. this man is crazy... i showed him some concern as a friend... hope that he wun misunderstood me... i kept reminding him of Victoria bt he doesn't seem to care... went to get my hair dryer and a new game... he made me go aside and paid for me in the end... hai... i dun understand these 2 guys... do they really tink tat i'm such a materialistic person?? if i cant afford to buy i wun go look for it...

met up with NiCe tdy and he is a sweetie la... i mean he really respect me alot... he noes his limit and all... he noes when to joke and when to be serious with me... i tink he is serious bt still i need more time for observations...

Prawning...

Went Ikea to get vase for my flower with Wendy, Angeline and NiCe... it was a nice feeling bt i guess everyone was trying to warm up ba...so lil weird here and there... NiCe was addicted to the meatballs.. lol.. silly boy...

proceed on to prawning after that with Adrian, NiCe's cousin... it was abit boring for me becus I've only managed to get one of the prawns out of 25!!! haha... nah the main reason is becus i'm tensed cus there's alot of ppl there which we noe....it was fun... i tink Wendy is hooked up on this...haha... didnt take photo cus I was super tired ytd and I forgot all abt taking photos... woke up at 8.30am and cudn't get back to slp...with the entire week's nite out..i'm gg into concusion...

went to the movie again... 3rd in a week... bt honestly I think it's time to change to watch movie in Cathay cus the seats are really comfy...

MeSS was farni... he called me when he was back in sg and he asked where I was and all... den after the call he texted me saying he is not trying to check on me or anything... bt i didnt think abt tat... i just tot it's nt so nice to join me and my friends to go out at the moment...everybody need alot of cooling period... maybe when he has given up on me den tat's the time where we can do tat ba... anyway he can be really a sweetie and a silly boy sometime which i loved...bt i guess things will just haf to move on...

busy busy week...

has been a hectic week for me... am out till late nite from monday to thursday... finally i get to come earlier on friday... woho... well... things are abit going up and down in certain aspects...

MeSs is really messy nw.. i dunno wad to say... bt i honestly feel tat he shld be devoted to Victoria and stop telling me abt our happy times... yes i cant deny somehow i missed it.. bt a big part of me is shattered..i can't feel it recuperating and it's something that I am learning to walk out of...i treasure the past years when we were tgt...though there were more disappointments than happy times bt still this love is worth for remembrance... i daresay it's becus i have put in 100% of my love into it...it is regrettable that things just happened the way it did bt i do believe in feelings...as long as it's something i feel insecure abt i will never go for it...i guess i have turned into a selfish someone... i dun wan to go thru those heart breaking moments again...never...rejections and objections... no way...

NiCe was nice...maybe becus it's the courtship period... i dunno bt he is the first guy to get me my fav flower...it doesnt have to be something big & expensive but it's that lil bit of actions tat count... i dunno.. maybe this guy has his ways with gers ba...he is sweet in some ways bt precautions are still taken...i cant just fall for this becus i'm looking for a solid ground where i can land my feet on... i am nt a materialistic person but i guess i really love surprises...maybe MeSS was rite..who noes one day I may end up together with him regardless of the difference in our sizes... and MeSS ever mentioned that I shld look for someone who is willing to accomodate my temper and demands.. yes for the moment i think NiCe may be the one.. bt i dunno wad will happen in the long run...

however, at the moment i still wish to remain single for awhile more... i wanna enjoy the freedom tat i am entitled to...



nt my fav color bt still the type of flower



2 songs tat he sent tat represents his feelings...


曲名：让我陪你 歌手：张栋梁


爱 有一种魔力
我难以抗拒
总是如此美丽
你 有动人魅力
我的一颗心早已决定为你痴迷
要勇敢面对
把曾受伤的心慢慢放出来
用我的真心真意分担你悲哀
拥有了爱 心就分不开

Oh baby
你如果很受伤
让我陪你哭一场
外面的世界多精彩
就让我把你的眼泪轻轻拭干
有时候我们必须学会放开

Oh baby
你如果很受伤
就当作是梦一场
你和我的未来充满无尽想象
要学会遗忘悲伤
才能牵着手去拥有爱的世界

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歌曲：勇气 歌手：光良

终于做了这个决定
别人怎么说我不理
只要你也一样的肯定
我愿意天涯海角都随你去
我知道一切不容易
我的心一直温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃

爱真的需要勇气
来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定
我的爱就有意义
我们都需要勇气
去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉你
放在我手心里

你的真心
如果我的坚强任性
会不小心伤害了你
你能不能温柔提醒
我虽然心太急
更害怕错过你

everyone says i'm a busy ger... bt i say i'm an escaper.... i avoid slp to avoid dreams...

had enuff

I've had enough.. i'm really tired... i'm walking out of the old self and moving to the new me...

dine out...

was working like zombie tdy.. with the minimal rest tat i haf and all... went home and was trying to pack my room.. guess i ended up in front of the computer again...

met up with MeSS... I am very worried about him nw... his hand are trembling and all... I tried to ignore bt my feelings just overflow...he played 2 particular songs "unbreak my heart" and "bleeding love" on the car while on the way to dinner... omg.. my emotions just took over me and my tears fell... argh... i dunno wad the heck am i thinking... i shldnt even haf touched him... arh... i even start smooching him... omgoodness...

nite out

was out the entire nite on friday till 5am... went to have a chat at ECP den proceed to Changi Rd for supper... next was to watch The Guard Post at 2:30am... this show sucks la.. waste money and it's gross...

woke up at abt 9am to go to work tdy... after that went to Su's hse for Hari Raya visit... her food is still fantastic and her little girl is so big nw... she stuck to me like superglue...lol... after which, NAH and myself went to TM..shop shop shop... bought a cute bag with bees and beetle prints...a 3 quarter pants ... wanted to get a dress.. bt cudnt decide... was thinking of getting it tmr though...

Went to the airport to fetch Joyce and Mark... both of them coincidentally took the same plane back to SIN... went over to Joyce's hse and talk cock abit... and nw back at hm.. waiting for my hair to dry... lol..

wad a day...

had 3 sticks tdy!!! damn i'm really stressed up...

was distributing some dark chocolates to a few of my colleagues including CoNe-y... i tink tat does make his day ba... he even commented tat i'm giving away dark chocolate while in my dark suite... lol....at least when we smoke we get to chat abit more...bt he is abit moody recently so i tried to cheer him up abit... and i have a case tdy and he came over personally again to tell me abt it... i was sitting down and he bent over to view my email.. our face were so close... omg...i tink i stopped breathing at tt moment...

NiCe told me tat he has a surprise for me and tat he is balloting for the night safari tix... he told me the date and ask me to keep myself free for the day and he seems quite confident tat he will get it... i dunno... MeSS seldom does such things for me... maybe once in awhile he will give me little surprises bt most of the time he thinks tat i do nt nid such surprises since we've been tgt for so long and it's gonna waste some funds...yes we were really tight and i understand...bt still i guess there are some things tat can be done without using money ba...

went over to wendy's plc and played with doggie while watching hk serial....

argh...

MESS is telling me all sorts of things tat are making me crazy.. this farking friend of his... which i dunno who...is making me all messed up... so wad... so wad if NiCe is trying to make me his gf.. it has gt nth to do with this busybody... fark ... it just spoils my day...and stupid me actually say things like "scratch her face" and all tat to MeSS... argh.. think i'm gg crazy... i'm saying things tat i know i wun do...argh....

He keeps saying his life is ending and all.. i dunno who the hell or where in the world he got this idea...i'm gg crazy with all this nonsense...

damn..why am i such an emotional person... if i haf remain still and nt be moved by him in the first plc.. i guess my life shld be different nw... yes i know he is trying to save me from trouble but hw trustworthy can this friend of his be.. i.. or rather we always believe things tat we see with our own eyes... bt i dunno if he has lost his judgement this time...

he ask me to which friend will I choose if I am given a choice... I said I will rather be alone... I hate choosing... I hate making decisions... he said i will be able to see where my heart belongs to... in a clearer view... bt nw my heart stands at where it is... it's within me and nt moving away at all... at least I'm learning to love myself nw...

Coffee Date

Went out with NICE tdy.. felt bad rejecting him so many times... and since i'm in a decent dress...nth revealing tdy so decided to go ahead... everything was as per norm.. just like old friends meeting up... he is really a good friend indeed... and tat coffee.. makes me awake till nw...

MESS called me..bt when he knows tat I'm outside he hung up.. a little worried for him cus it seems like he had a bad day... hai...